Hurts & Rugs, Specks & Logs

Let’s ALL Take "The Dixie-Cup Test" *

(By Copan & David)

 

*CAUTION: The following article contains some direct quotes,
in the words and language used, which may be viewed as
"harsh and innappropriate" by some readers. However, to quote (paraphrase) author Larry Crabb from his book Shattered Dreams,  

"Quite often, some people in the church are more concerned
with the language that others use, rather than the
    heartfelt feelings and pain which are being expressed. . .
and that is most unfortunate."

My friend called the other morning with a request. After a meeting he had with another friend, he asked me to send him a copy of the article I wrote called, The Dixie-Cup Test. He said he had told his friend about it and the other guy “cracked up laughing and thought it was great.” Well, as Forrest Gump would say, “Now, I don’t know much about that.” Unfortunately, at that time, I never wrote the article. It was just something we had talked about, more than once, after a get-together we had attended nearly a
year earlier.

At that time, another close friend was stating their case against someone who had hurt them – and rightfully so. They had been hurt real badly, over and over. I think we’ve all experienced that at one time or another. Still,
it was during that get-together where the subject of “wrongs and hurts”
(sins) came up. So here goes, as I attempt to share our thoughts on
Hurts & Rugs, Specks & Logs – Let's ALL Take "The Dixie Cup Test". But first, let me share some lyrics from a song called Sanctify Me.

I was talking to God about you,
and He showed me the STICK in my eye.
I was hoping to criticize you,
but His Truth made me realize. . .
It’s not you who’s the problem, it’s me –
I’m as blind as a fool could be.
When I think of all I have to give,
it’s like dirty rags, Lord, let me live.

Oh Lord, Sanctify Me –
Make me clean and let me see.
Oh Lord, will You Sanctify Me –
And make me all You want me to be.

Hurts & Rugs

I think every one of us has experienced “the Formula” in our lives – HPx2 (Hurt People, hurt people). Most of the time, we’re not hurting others and they are not hurting us, intentionally. But unfortunately, the hurts (wounds) still happen in relationships. I think that’s because learning how to Love unconditionally, like learning how to Forgive (from the heart), is a process – it’s all part of the Journey for each of us. . . IF we're willing?

I think rugs are great for bare floors, but rugs really aren't so great for bare hearts. Love, in most relationships, usually involves some degree of transparency, vulnerability and trust, among other things. Often, but not always, the more “In Love” we are with someone, the more willing and
able we are to bare our hearts and souls to that person – that is to say, our personal Joys and Aches. Unfortunately, I think most of my past relationships also came with rugs. In so much, I would often look past a particular offense (hurt) that I received from someone. It would appear that the more I loved someone, the more I was (seemingly) willing to “just let
it go.” After all, “Love covers a multitude of sins (hurts),” right? In my hidden pride, maybe I pretended I was a “bigger or better person” than that, rather then tell them how I really felt. Maybe in my imagination, I pretended that the offense of what someone said or did, or perhaps didn’t say or do, really didn’t bother me. In that relationship, I just swept it (the hurt) under the rug. Let’s just keep everything nice and clean, and move on – Oh really?

But in a deeper reality, those hurts DID BOTHER ME. I think that in some hidden place in my wounded and broken heart, I felt I had tucked that hurt away – perhaps maybe in one of the cracks. Unfortunately, I found out later that I was silently “keeping score.” Over time, I came to acknowledge that “If Love keeps no record of wrongs, then why do I have a score SO STEEP?” After many years of sweeping all the “little hurts” under the rug, I think the lump became so big that one day I tripped over it – and broke my neck, or maybe it was my back, or maybe it was just my heart that was broken. I think the same thing happens to others. It would seem that the “sun went down on my (our) anger” regarding those hurts, over and over – for many years.

The hurts in that relationship eventually added up and the infection from those wounds kept growing. My inability to deal with hurtful issues in a healthy and healing way, as they occurred, didn’t help. My “niceness” in not wanting (or being able) to express my feelings, as the offense took place, was actually quite contrary to what Jesus instructs. He says,
“If your brother (or sister) offends (hurts) you, go and TELL THEM.”

I had to learn how to do that – without being condemning or judgmental. I had to learn how to share with someone about what they did or said, and how I felt as a result. I also had to learn how to validate and acknowledge them when I had done something hurtful, so as not to deny their feelings. Granted, the other person also has to be willing to work through the issues (hurts) as they happen, as well. Relationships are often like a dance contest and I’ve learned it does “Take two to Tango” if you’re going to “Win the Prize”.

But sometimes, I’ve experienced the offense may have happened so quickly that I didn’t have time, at that moment, to address what took place. Nor, was I able to truly identify and understand my own feelings and share with someone, why I felt hurt. I’ve been learning
to take “the hurt” to the Lord when that happens.

Specks & Logs

When things aren’t going well in relationships, it’s often quite common for one or both partners to engage in "The Blame Game." Personally, I do believe in the “pointing the finger”. . . I’ve just learned to do that in front of
a mirror, before I ever do it in front of a window. You see, there’s something about “first removing the log from your own eye, so that you can see clearly how to remove the speck from someone else’s. . .” Strange thing is though, about specks and logs. It would seem that often when
I brought something to God, as a complaint against someone else,
He would show me that I was guilty of the same thing, or worse.

I’d thought, “they weren’t there for me” – and truly, neither was I there
for them. I thought, “they just aren’t treating me fairly or with love and kindness” – and neither was I treating them likewise. I felt “unappreciated in my efforts” – and in reality, I’d been most unappreciative of their efforts for me. I felt “judged and condemned” – but maybe, I had been judgmental and condemning of them, as well. And, I'm sure I had thoughts like,
“I would never. . .” – but in fact I had, and did. I could go on, but I think
you get the point. Needless to say, I don’t think any of us really has a handle on how to Forgive, “Seventy Times Seven” when someone has hurt us, especially more than once.

There are lots of hurts (trespasses) that each of us has experienced
from those who claim to love us. Hurts like adultery, murder (even if it’s only in our minds), stealing, lying, cheating, selfishness, unfairness, unappreciation, invalidation, jealousy, bitterness, quarreling, resentment, judgment, condemnation, being taken for granted or advantage of, and even a genuine lack of heartfelt concern, and let’s not forget – a lack of forgiveness, from the heart. Those are just some of the hurts we’ve each experienced and, often unintentionally, have put upon others whom we
are supposed to love, as well. Yes, maybe those are the very things we’re holding against someone else, that we’re actually guilty of ourselves. You know, it’s the “Speck and the Log” thing. I really wonder where all of those hurts (sins) line up with Christ, in terms of which one is the worst? Surely, adultery and murder have to be at the top of the “worst sins” list. Oh, and how about the sin of “My shit don’t stink”? I wonder where that one falls in Christ’s list of “bad to worst sins.”

The Dixie-Cup Test

How about if each one of us, who is finding fault with someone else, takes a crap in a little Dixie-Cup and sets it up on a shelf to be examined. In fact, maybe we should all do that. And, I wonder “who’s cup” wouldn’t stink? I believe what Jesus said – “Why do you judge (and find fault with) your neighbor when you, too, are guilty of the same things?” “Do NOT judge, as for how you judge another, you too shall be judged.” Wow! – I came to see that I had so much crap (woundedness) in my own heart, that a Dixie-Cup probably wouldn’t hold it all. And, those wounds were coming out in all sorts of, let's say, less than loving ways.
It didn't happen all the time, but when it did. . . Watch out, that's all. 

Ideally, I believe that’s where Christ comes in – to help clean up our crap. That is to say, “to Heal our broken hearts (wounds).” Sometimes we have to be blinded, before we can truly see. By Grace, I do know what that’s like. Fortunately, Jesus also said that He came “to restore sight to the blind” – like me. Still, it’s a Journey for each of us who, indeed, want to follow. . . and for those of us who truly “want to get well” (be Healed).

I’ve come to the place of wanting to have more honesty and openness in all my relationships. Since being on my Healing Journey, I’ve been blessed with others who, like me, are learning HOW to address the hurts as they happen. We’re also learning how to share our feelings with others, without judgment or condemnation.

It’s become an unwritten rule in many of these relationships. . . like an agreed “healthy understanding.” That is, whenever any of us does or says something that hurts or offends another, we talk about it as
it happens – when that’s possible. It a difficult process to learn and practice, but it’s quite possible when two people are of the same mindset and heart (Spirit). One Heart Matters – and the sooner we recognize that True Love comes from the heart, the sooner we’ll all be FREE to Love each other unconditionally and to Forgive – the way Christ Loves and Forgives each of us.

P.S. I’m not sure that Forrest Gump would “crack up” and think any of

this is all that funny. However, he did say, “I might not be a smart man, but I do know what Love is.” And without the willingness to Forgive, from the Heart, we will have no capacity to Truly Love. Ideally, when it comes to our most personal and intimate relationships, there's just the two of us. . . and without Love, we are nothing. I hope you enjoy the music video and the short story (true account) that follows.

*The Account of God and Two Men
[or Two Women, or a Man and a Woman – You get to choose]

(Jesus, from the Book of Luke 18: 9-14)

To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable:

"Two men (or women) went up to the Church to pray, one a Pharisee
(a Good, Honorable, Religious, Holy, Proper and [self] Righteous Man)
and the other a tax collector (someone who obviously “Had PROBLEMS” and who was a Sinner). The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: 'God, I thank you that I am not like other men – robbers, evildoers, adulterers – or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give
a tenth of all I get.' 

"But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a Sinner’.” 

"I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."